Wake up call

Saturday I was getting dressed for our Kings Dominion excursion. I pulled on my DKNY jeans (1 of 2 pair that actually still fit) and proceeded to put on my socks and tennis shoes. As I was working my foot into my shoe, I heard a ripping sound. I pause and try to figure out where the sound came from. I check my shirt to see if I'd ripped a sleeve or the hem. My shirt checked out fine. I then looked down at my jeans and moved my legs around. That's when I saw it. On the inside of my right thigh, a hole near the seam. I sighed and got up and took my jeans off. I felt like crap and wanted to crawl into bed and feel sorry for myself. I knew this was going to happen eventually. I have two pairs of jeans that I wear. I bought them 2 years ago. All of my other jeans are either too tight or I can't get them over my hips. Rotating the same two pair of jeans, there's going to be some wear and tear especially with my fight thighs rubbing together when I walk But the thing is, I refuse to buy new jeans. I have at least 10 pairs of perfectly good jeans in my closet that I'm currently not wearing. And why? Because I haven't lost the weight that I've been pledging to lose for the last 5 or so years. It's frustrating and this hole is the punch in the face that I need. I'm over it. The second pair of jeans is going to only last for so long. I have a $90 pair of Lucky Brand jeans that I haven't worn in a year and a half because they are too tight and cut off my circulation. What a waste!

So my tendency right now is to go hard and extreme. I know that's not the way to go about it because it would mean I wouldn't be able to stick with it. Right now I'm telling myself that I should start working out twice a day, 7 days a week and eat a super low-calorie diet. None of this is realistic and it's doomed for failure. Instead I'm going to make a promise myself that I'm going to consistently workout and eat healthy. Slow and steady is the key to successful and long-term weight loss. This hole is going to be a constant reminder of my goal and what I need to accomplish. I'm going to dig those Lucky Brand Jeans out from the back of my closet and hang them up so that whenever I'm in my closet, I will see them, looking pretty much brand new. And know that I will be wearing those jeans again...SOON!